Today was weigh in day. I was nervous. What if my first week of eating well and exercising didn't do anything? What if my body was so used to storing fat at this point that it decided it didn't want to be thin?
My friend Sam asked me to wait until she got into work for me to weigh, so I did. 9:00 she rocked up to work and I walked over, stepped on the scale and covered my eyes. When I finally got the courage to peek through my fingers this number flashed up at me, 134.35. Ok, not bad, that's 1.3 kilos in one week but it's not great either. Not for someone of my size. Honestly, I was hoping for over 2 kilos but lets take a look at my week and see what can be improved.
I ate reasonably well all week. I didn't track much (I've never been very good at it). But I used common sense which most of the time paid off. I ate lunch out and made the mistake of oredering duck not realising how fatty it is, but hey, I learned. Being honest with myself, will I track in the future? Probably not. But it's probably something that I really need to at least try to do.
Exercise... This I think i nailed pretty well. I exercised 6 out of 7 days and was sweaty and red after every class. I could probably work a little harder in some classes but I think I did a good job.
I fully intended on starting this week out on a high note. I was going to eat great and do 2 classes at the gym today, boy was I wrong. As I'm sure everyone is aware, today is Valentines Day and for those who don't know me or who just don't know, Braden works a lot. And because he works in a restaurant he had to work today, Valentines day is one of the more busy days of the year. Which is fine since our anniversary is less than a week after Valentines day. I decided today was going to be a 'me' day! Time to love myself. I'm not very good at that to say the least and this became even more apparent as the day progressed.
Turns out I treated it as more of a 'I'm single, lonely and sad day'.
I thought about what one does when one is alone come Valentines day and the first thing that popped into my head was movies and junk food. Then wouldn't you know it, I started craving chocolate and Macdonalds hard core. These are the worst cravings I've had so far. I decided to take some advice and not deprive myself too much, so I went to Woolworths, picked myself up some dark chocolate and went through the drivethru and ordered a chicken cheeseburger, small fries and coke zero. Compared to my usual haul it's quite tame. Which would have mostly likey been at least 2 different kind of milk chocolate products (probably double coated time tams and chocolate covered licorice) and my usual order from Macdonalds.. Now I've promised myself that I will be as close to honest as I can be on this blog so I'm about to reveal to you one of my more shameful revelations...My usual Macdonalds order which is as follows.... Large double cheeseburge meal with no pickles, onion or mustard with 2 pieces of bacon (Because of course one just isn't enough) and extra ketchup!
Now considering the difference in choices you'd think I'd be pretty happy with myself, making better decisions, but instead I felt terrible. I sat in front of the TV and ate the junk food and felt like nothing had changed in the last week and I'm disappointed in myself. So disappointed in myself that I got in my PJs and skipped the gym. Prime logic! I'm hoping that letting you all know how rubbish I've been today will help keep me from making the same mistakes all over again.
Also, I watched Marley and me and cried for about 10 minutes... Next Valentines day I get my hair and nails done!
So all in all, good first week, crummy start to this week but I know it will get better! Hope everyones day was more productive than mine!
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